The coming week is going to be insane. No, I’m serious. And I can’t wait for it to end.
So with 3 hospital visits for my mother-in-law all in a week, a work trip to Nagpur which also means the stress of being away from the baby for the first night since he was born, negotiations for compensation with the NGO (don’t get me started on that), and photography classes resuming, there is crazy amounts to do.
Frankly, I’m not really looking forward to it but I guess it must be done.
My mom-in-law got an infection last week which has put the spanner in the works for her chemo and multiple tests will now be needed to ensure she’s ready for the next round. Also a PET scan, to check on the regression of the disease. Now that’s a big one and we’re really hoping this treatment would’ve given her a genuine shot at a normal, healthy life again.
Meanwhile, have been preparing for the Nagpur trip on multiple fronts.
Getting my head around the project and the scope of work. It’s really interesting, almost like a Sudoku puzzle which I love by the way and am looking to crunch this problem together. What needs bigger preparation though is getting used to the idea of being away from the baby for a night.
Now my husband is super supportive and will be working from home in the evenings (mornings are daycare time anyway) to make sure the baby feels comfortable and is taken care of. And I know he won’t let him go hungry.
But the irrational mom in me is having an emotional breakdown. Not only is the baby not night weaned and bottle averse (the nights are going to be tough),but I’ve also never been away from him for such a long time. Ever. In his whole life.
And I keep thinking how my kid will miss me and be so confused and disappointed in me for having left him without fair warning (how am I supposed to prepare a 10 month old anyway?)
And of course I feel super guilty about really looking forward to the uninterrupted sleep I’ll be getting for that one night.
I guess it won’t be that bad. Right?
Update: MIL’s first appointment gave us some disappointing news. Her immunity is falling and much lower than expected. Hopefully, there’ll be better news to share soon,