Working on your own requires a totally different level of commitment. Nothing can be postponed, pushed aside or wriggled out of. And there are no excuses. Because every such act has a very strong implication on your progress.
But I have to say that unfortunately, my many years in corporate life have spoilt me rotten.
When you’re working in a company, making, abusing and accepting excuses is pretty normal. They’re casually flung about to get out of work, load someone else with stuff you don’t want to do or generally put up your feet for a bit. No one minds them either. Because its a weapon everyone is familiar with and has fired extensively over their careers.
While some people use them intelligently and ‘reschedule’, ‘postpone’ and ‘sleep over work. Others stick with old favourites to convince bosses and teammates to let them inch out of their responsibilities.
“Sorry, I’m late because my tyre burst.”
“Aaj NH 8 me jam dekha?”
“Sorry man, had some urgent work at home.” (Read as – needed to watch the final episode of GOT S5 before the spoilers came out)
“Not feeling well, sir” (Read as – just don’t feel like working today so will veg out on a couch all day watching TV)
Excuses are the accepted code of the working class to cheat some time for themselves. For most of us, they’re what make working life tolerable, even fun.
Obviously doing all of the above on a regular basis creates a pile of work and pushes the whole team into a corner, fighting deadlines and firefighting crises to make up for the prior laxity ; which ironically makes all the dilly dallying pointless.
Working on your own however gives you no such leeway. Excuses just don’t work here. And how could they? After all since you’re your own boss, who will you make the excuse to?
Being your own boss, while it comes with its benefits, can also be pretty taxing at times. It means delivering on your own exacting, exhausting standards. Everyday. After Day. No weekends. No coffee breaks. Nothing at all. In fact, sometimes I feel like I’m the worst boss I’ve ever had. Pushy, critical and never satisfied.
There’s just no point in making an excuse to yourself when you are your own boss, employee, fall-back option and client. Trust me, I’ve tried it several times. Telling myself I’m too sick to work or convincing myself that I’ll have to travel too far for that meeting so I’ll skip.
But so far, I’ve had absolutely no success in entertaining any of these.
Guess I’ve no excuse left, but to change some old habits.